Testing the Waters

It’s been a while since my last post, I have been quite busy this past week with a lot of uni-related things.  Especially settling in; I’ve moved to a new location to make transport easier and a new studio to make my life easier too.

So far I really find Computer Science interesting. Whilst the male to female ratio may be a little bizarre it’s tolerable. Having moved from an all-girl school all through primary and secondary school it was a bit overwhelming to suddenly be part of a male-dominated field.  At the same time, it has made the girls (18 girls so far in a sea of more than 100+ boys) more close-knit and we all have gotten to know each other well.  This semester, most classes usually end after 50 minutes and most days I have class starting from 9:00am to 16:50pm.

Campus picture I really love! ❤️
Ballet is still ongoing, I will be taking two classes a week both on Monday and if I can I will try out an hour class on Saturdays too, provided that uni does not give me too much to handle. 😖   My ballet teacher got married this week thus we didn’t have ballet. It seems like such a long while since I danced. I am really looking forward to this Monday’s class.

Last Sunday, I also auditioned for a ballet Youth Company, despite not really wanting to join. I knew Uni would render me with a busy schedule,  also the cost per term was too much for me to afford as a student. But I went that day, mostly for the experience and feel of how an audition is like. The teacher was super sweet and it was a small audition class thus the teacher was able to focus on us a lot more. We learned a Giselle variation and a Nikiya variation. It was my first time learning a variation so it was super new to me and I really loved it., though picking up steps needs a little work. 🤔

Audition class.
Also, I noticed, I barely breathe during Ballet classes or anything physical in all honestly. I always seem to forget to breathe, because of this the ballet teacher told us to breathe very deeply, in and out. I know understand why I’m always sweating buckets and red in the face while everyone is calm and composed. I also learned how to keep my shoulders down.  I have had previous teachers tell me to keep my shoulders down and I always try to, but I didn’t really understand what they meant. Until this ballet teacher told me how to do it.

Essentially, you have to try and imagine pushing your shoulder blades down. It really helped me with correcting myself. Perhaps you might find it helpful too!

Also, this month I have set myself for a new challenge. Since I got mirrors in my studio now I can see how my feet look and they are not pretty. 😂 I definitely have more biscuit feet than Banana! I began with doing a lot of releveés in first and then doing reverse toe presses then toe presses. It’s been a few weeks and I think it looks a little better. 😎




Also, if you haven’t seen the new trailer for World Ballet Day 2017 you should! It got me so excited. It also inspires me to dance too and to keep on going with my journey. 🙂



I hope you enjoyed this post. I love jotting down my life as not only to show you guys but for me to look back on and remember these beautiful and sometimes not so beautiful times.


See you in my next post! 😉

Lots of love,



A wish without a goal is only a dream

Happy September Everyone!

Tomorrow marks the start of a new term for me in Ballet. Since the intensive I had in TDI, I have learnt so much. Even though it was only 5 days, I honestly felt like I improved faster than in a normal weekly class which takes a few weeks for me to see improvement. This post is inspired by Alessia and her post: “My eight goals to start with the right attitude.” Please go and check out Alessia’s blog, she’s a fabulous and mature individual who I believe, will achieve great things in the future and her journey is certainly an interesting one I wouldn’t miss. 😉

So let’s start! These are my goals for this year.

  1. Better Turnout. Turnout is a huge problem for me. My technique is not bad but Related imagewhat makes it look horrible is my 150-degree turnout. At my old studio, we didn’t have any mirrors or Marley floors, so we sufficed with only corrections from my teacher. At the intensive, I was able to see myself for the very first time while at the barre. Now, I realize why mirrors are so important. Corrections from teachers are good but to be able to physically see what you are doing wrong is important.

How I will achieve my goal: Do a lot of exercises to target the glutes eg. Clam shell, butt lifts etc. Kathyrn Morgan’s turnout improvement and Goulet Ballet’s video.  Also, stretching out your glutes is important so I will aim to stretch them after every ballet class. Tension can certainly inhibit movement in the hip.


2.  Better feet flexibility. Since I have started Ballet not so long ago, above anything else I knew perfect feet is desirable in ballet. I have been implementing some foot exercises using the Thera-band and also a tennis ball for a few days and I can definitely say there is a  noticeable difference in my feet.

How I will achieve my goals: Every morning/ Before a workout do feet exercises, flexing and pointing also using the Thera-band. Seated arch stretches, toes stretch, toe presses, and toe presses in reverse.


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Dreaming I can be strong and flexible as her. ❤

3. Better back flexibility and strength.  Back flexibility is something I have been working on for a while and to some degree, I have a decent amount of flexibility in my back. While I was in the dance intensive I was given the correction of not pushing myRelated image hips forward, but engaging my core while bending back in fifth position. This has made me realize that back strength and also the core is very important.

How I will achieve my goal: Back strengthing exercises eg. supermans, swimmers ( swimming motion with your legs and shoulders raised from the ground), pilates. Kathryn Morgan’s back workout.


4. Better straddle/Middle Splits. Middle splits and straddle is a struggle for me. Flexibility comes quite easily to me once my muscles are extremely warm and sometimes I’m able to do things my mind believes I can’t so I tend to hold back. But middle splits is something I really need to work on. I recently strained a part of my upper right thigh, I think the pain stems from a glute problem, so I can’t stretch that side much. Hopefully, it will get better soon! I’m one of those people who loves to stretch. Are you? 😉

How will I achieve my goal: sitting in straddle and stretching each hamstring in that position, doing hip stretches eg. butterfly, pigeon pose, plié in second, opening my legs in straddle against the wall. Hold middle splits for a min.

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5. Improve Arabesque. If I follow through with the previous goals I believe my arabesque will certainly be achievable. Hopefully if I can, I will be auditioning for more summer intensives this year and I really would like to get this arabesque.

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There you go dancers, these are my goals for this year. They certainly are achievable if I work hard. I realize strength and flexibility are very important to achieve the results of the above pictures. Many of these dancers train a lot to achieve such amazing results, it certainly didn’t take a day!

As much as I love the final end goal I love the progress even more. Ballet is a journey, an unforgettable one.

What are your goals for this year? It doesn’t have to be dance it could be academic or relating to work. Shoot them to me! 

Dream big everyone! Don’t stay in your bubble, you’ve got one life to live.

May- xx

Getting my first pointe shoes

First pointe shoes- 26/08/17

Unexpected thing arrives when you least expect them to. That’s what happened to me this Saturday (three days ago) when I got my first pointe shoes. I wasn’t expecting it to be so soon but it happened and I’m really happy now! 😛 

My teacher made an appointment for us to get fitted together. I went with another girl in my class, and it took around 20 minutes for each of us to get fitted. I probably tried on nine pairs of pointe shoes before settling down for one.

Initially the fitter thought I had a 1XX width and made me try on a few but when I stood up I knew it didn’t feel right since I kept on sinking into my shoe. My toes are actually pretty spaced out and that gives the impression that my feet are wide but when they are actually compacted together my feet is pretty narrow. 

The picture above is a Bloch shoe, European Balance, 1X, size 5.5. I’m currently in the process of sewing  them. Finally a little bit of my dream is becoming my reality. 😍

More pictures! 💫
Picture from the back before they get destroyed by dirty floors! ☀️

Hope you enjoyed reading about my experience. I have a question I would like you to answer yourself, are you living the life you want or are you just doing it because that’s what people want you to do? 

What makes you not look forward to going home? Or better yet not looking at your phone?

My answer would be dance and sometimes I forget to eat! (I do eat but the way if you want to know!)  

See you! 🌻 And dream big everyone!


Facing Reality…

I think as a young child we all had certain perceptions of what our dream careers would be like and how every day would seem to us. Not just in dance but in many other professions, whether it is being a doctor, nurse, teacher or Lawyer. Everyone has preconceived ideas that do not fit the reality of what they will experience. Sometimes the truth can be heartbreaking and diminish people’s fire they once had for a path in life. I think that is why so many people fall out of love with their jobs. They see them for what it really was. People change and grow but sadly the job doesn’t.

For me, I had a preconceived idea that dancers dance all day long, performing most evening and lived a life filled with immense passion and love for the work they do. Yes, I’ve heard of the blood, sweat, and tears but it didn’t quite resonate with me and so I definitely didn’t really understand the meaning behind these words.

Now after countless research of Ballet and Company life I am happy to say I know a little more about it. A dancer’s life is a tough life. It is not airy-fairy, don’t let the dancer on the stage fool you with her easy smile because inside she probably is feeling pain from the countless blisters she obtained from consistent rehearsals juxtaposed to happiness for being able to do what she has always wanted- that is to perform.

A really good documentary I watched recently was “Agony and Ecstacy” . In my opinion, I think it portrays the ballet world and the BTS of what Company life is really like. From ahard-to-impress ballet masters to injuries, to overwhelming character understudy-ings, to competition and funding. It is all a visible reality of what life is really like inside a theatre/company.

The world is a hard place to live in and even a place filled with dreams are not an exception.

A chance to be a dancer is very slim. Injuries are likely and money is an issue.

I’m glad this documentary has shown me the reality of what to expect. Otherwise, I know I would be extremely overwhelmed and that is if I am even capable of finding a company to work with. “Nothing is impossible” as they say.

Now you must be wondering if I am feeling off-putted by the harsh reality. Quite the opposite actually, I am determined to do a lot! If you are a young dancer reading this, don’t despair. If you really love it, there are bound to be ways where you can make it! I believe it is important to know the truth though. I know when I first started going to my first job, I was completely taken aback at how nasty and mean my colleagues were. I cried the night I came home because it wasn’t what I expected. 😦

Life is tough my friends, as sad as it is. But it’s up to us to make the change! I know I can, can you?


True and Inspiring Quote! ❤


I hope that gave you a real insight into Dance and the struggle. Being a ballet dancer is a real profession that requires just as much mental and physical strength. The Company is a business like any other business. I think this has made me appreciate the art of ballet even more because it takes a strong person to go through these obstacles. 

Thanks for reading!!





TDI Week overview

It’s me again! Today I will be talking about how I feel overall in my first intensive for dance. I would highly recommend to everyone to try, even adults. I enjoyed it immensely, even the other dance styles surprisingly. I loved all of it and the teachers were especially willing to help us with useful corrections even though they didn’t know us at all.
I was actually going to post every day after I have the dance intensive, but by the time I got home it was pretty late. So I opted for posting an overall overview of how I felt about being there.
Being there has taught me quite a lot, especially in terms of where my ability is currently and the potential that lies in the future for me. My teacher told us it would be a good opportunity for us to see where our potential is amongst the other students. I was quite surprised to see that we weren’t so far off from the other students at intermediate level, or maybe that’s because I am older and able to learn faster. Either way, it was a level that I felt was sufficient and competent enough. However, the teachers did try to push us. I also realized we haven’t done much of intermediate level ballet either because most of the vocabulary and steps the ballet masters and mistresses used did not resonate with me. 
I also immensely enjoyed the other dance styles. We danced to swan lake, tap, musical theatre (la la land), contemporary and commercial using the song “Solo Dance” which I loved. 😍 We learned all of the chereography for all the dances in just 5 days!! 😱 It was great fun though. 
I was so amazed by how amazing some of the young kids were. Some were around 10-11 years old and have such incredible flexibility and dancing ability. 😍
I’m looking forward to attending next year! Hopefully it will be just as amazing! Thanks for having me TDI. See you next year. 🤗
May xx

Dance addiction

Ever since I knew about the art of ballet I was completely captivated by the magic and etherealness it expressed. Till this day, I am still amazed by the music and movements of ballet dancers. I knew I had to give it a shot. It took me a long time to realize it. I think my mum thought it was just a phase I had. But in all honesty, all the phases I had are still with me today. I still love horses and I have always had a fascination with acrobatics too. But nothing captured me more than Ballet.

When I dance I feel a happiness inside of me, that is invaluable.

So, now that summer is here I am looking more forward more than ever to dancing again. I am missing it terribly and when I do try to dance at home nothing compares to dancing in my ballet studio, as small as it is, it has become my second home.

It’s always on my mind. When I wake up the word ‘ballet’ is on the top of my tongue.

I definitely, have a dancer addiction.

Me playing around with photography. I look happy in this one.
Another one, telling myself to focus!

A quote that I really love and resonates with me.



note to self ♡

Dear me/aspiring dancers,

Don’t be despondent about where you are now. Don’t feel like your life is on pause just because you aren’t there yet.

At times, you may feel like your dreams are impossible, but even miracles take a little time. You may not go down the conventional route of a dancer but know that you can still be different and achieve what your heart yearns for.

It might take countless failures and rejections to get to the top but do not let them be the sources of discouragement; let them be your foundation for a better endeavor next time.

You might feel a bit envious of girls who are fortunate to chase their dreams earlier in life. That’s fine, but remember not everyone’s story has to be conventional. Your’s can be an inspiration. 🙂

You may feel you are inadequate. People may hurt you with words. But you are stronger than you think. You started this journey for a reason and it is no good to give up halfway. NO one is going to help you get there, you are in charge of your life now.

And don’t feel the need to ask other people to reassure your aspirations. The trouble is by not risking anything you risk more.

When you look back, you will be happy that you listened to your heart. You just have to believe you can make it. Because in order for others to believe in your dreams you have to be the first person to believe it can happen.

Ask yourself the question “A year from now would you have wished you had started today?” 


“I can Accept failure. Everyone fails at something but I can’t accept not trying.” 

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“Be fierce. Face your biggest fear and don’t allow them to scare you. You are strong enough to overcome anything imaginable.”


Hey there everyone! This post is for me and for everyone else trying to pursue their dreams. At times, I am faced with discouragement and sometimes I feel like I should give up because the end goal seems almost impossible to reach. So, I have written this out, to encourage me and perhaps all aspiring dancers out there. Recently, I have seen so much success stories of young dancers I know and though I am happy for them, it honestly makes me unhappy with where I am. Now that I have overcome this sadness I wrote this to help others who may feel they are in a similar situation. Just know you are not alone and you can do it! 🙂



Much Love